today is typical. and im not sure i like it.

i woke up at exactly 1150, which is a plus because for the past week i have found it impossible to wake up before noon. ten points, amanda. after rolling out on the wrong side of the bed, i slapped on some makeup, my jean capris and my gray bow sweatshirt (a purchase i made because i wanted to wear gray sweats without looking as slobby as i feel) and headed out the door for weekly grocery shopping at walmart. after splitting the forty dollar bill with my sister, i went to lunch and split the twelve dollar bill with my friend. now that im home, im realizing what a day it has been. its exactly like my sweatshirt. gray, cheap and plain with a bow slapped on it to make it look special. scarily, i find a great similarity in my clothing choices and my life choices. ive become so comfortable with the ordinary but still, i attempt to make an effort with half-ass embellishments. its frustrating enough to drive me to make a statement and change into a super-hot outfit just to prove to myself that im not monotonous and boring but that would mean that i have to get up and put forth an effort and im just too tired. which proves my previous point. sigh.

in more lighthearted and light-colored news, FALL IS HERE!!!!!!! and if you didnt get the hint from the seven exclamation points, i love fall. its my favorite season. the entire landscape gets a major wardrobe change, the air gets electrifyingly crisp and the temperature begins its yearly plummet. i cant wait until that day when i step outside and immediately retreat back indoors to retrieve scarves and coats from my stockpile of winter clothes. some people find it odd that fall and winter are my favorite seasons because i love the cold. and not only do i love the cold, but i love being absolutely freezing. possibly because im naturally a warm-bodied girl, but more likely because being cold reminds me that im alive. the burning in my lungs as i inhale, the tingle of my skin as my goosebumps take over, the numbness in my face as i face the bitterly cold wind are all constant reminders that i am in fact living. there is no better constant nature-made reminder than feeling the un-feeling in my fingers and toes as they succumb to sub-freezing temperatures. god i love this time of year. another reason why i love the change of seasons is that it spices things up a bit. the monotony of the weather is broken and the world gets a wake-up jolt, something ive obviously been needing. not to mention that hot  chocolate and croissants creep into my diet alot more around the fall months. i should buy some panera stock now because i know im going to help drive it up with my frequent trips.

okay im going to silence my fingers now. no more typing amanda. im gonna just sit back, listen to music and put those olfactory senses to work as the enticing pumpkin pie candle scent fills the room.. aaaaah autumn.

--amandamcoughlin